I violated the Cardinal Rule of Web log posting: be present. Please forgive me for going dark.
The last post I wrote about our dear friend, Jay. From there we had Father’s Day and Vacation and our 17th Wedding Anniversary (can I get a WOO-HOO?) I could’ve posted about my incredble father, the great dad and husband John has been and how even the tame Hogwart’s Ride in Universal Orlando nearly made me vomit. Oh…so many ways to go there.
Sprinkled in-between those events were some really awful happenings: the discovery of a brain tumor one of my friend’s 4-year-old daughter (surgery is this Wednesday,) my newly-widowed friend, Aprile’s loss of her Father, and the diagnosis of cancer in two parents of other dear friends. It’s as if the tragedy fairy has been hopped up on Mountain Dew, wielding her two by four with a vengeance, happily head-smacking unsuspecting friends with life-altering circumstances. It’s been terrible.
Now today, two years removed from my own worst nightmare, I see from spectator’s perspective how faith in God and His ultimate resolution is the secret sustaining my bludgeoned friends. I see something larger than mere determination pulling them through the worst of times because humanly speaking they should not be prone at this point. What is there is more than optimism, good will or wishful thinking; it is acceptance of their portion of pain with a deep confidence that things will somehow work out.
As comfortable as we can make it, as beautiful as it can be and as perfect fleeting moments of our lives certainly are, I have crawled inside and worn this truth: this world is not my home. It does not mean that we stop living when hit by that two by four, no, I still have to live my life and make the most of my days, but at the end of the day, at the end of this life, no measure of what I have accrued, built or collected, (including a pain-free life) is important. “The best is indeed, Elizabeth Browning, yet to be.”
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I like to say “you better decide that God is Sovereign when life is good, so that you can choose to believe He is Sovereign when life is hard.” Thanks for always being so transparent during the hard times.
Agreed. Love to you!
As always, your posts are timely and seem to speak directly to me. Thanks Jinny, for your incredible insight. You and your family are in our prayers. Love to you all.
Thank you so much for your continued prayers.
Absolute perfection. To be able to unravel the Truth of our existence and then tie it in such a beautiful bow of wisdom, comfort and peace is a remarkable gift you posses. And we are so grateful to you for sharing your heavenly talent with all of us. Please don’t ever stop. Your words are medicine for the soul!
Love you, Jinny!
Thank you, Terri.
I know today brings memories of breath-taking fear girded by faith, and the weeks that followed were full of concern and prayers from around the world. I’m glad God is compassionate when we question Him and does not dismiss our sometimes insistant,”Whys”. A greater understanding yet to come, perhaps. I feel I have so much to learn. What a wonderful gift of unbridled joy and trust was Maggie Lee. A big dynamolife in a petite package. She’s touched us all
Thank you so much for writing.
I LOVE YOU, CHERISHED FRIEND, TO THE MOON AND BACK!!